Tender moment...

Last night Benson and I were just hanging out enjoying each others company when our little man began to be active. Everyday I update Benson on babies movements or else he'll make sure and ask if I've felt baby moving. Benson has been longing to feel him kick...every time I have Benson put his hand on my tummy our little man will stop moving. Last night I felt a strong kick so I had Benson hurry and put his hand where I felt it. Then surprisingly baby kicked 3 more times!!! I started bawling because I get to feel him all the time and this was Benson's first time :) The biggest smile came across Benson's face. He is going to be an amazing daddy :) I love my little family so much... I just had to share my tender moment :)

We are having a....BOY!!!!

Oh my goodness this past week has been crazy with holiday shopping, birthdays...BUT among all the hustle and bustle of the holidays we found out what our little one is...AND...we are having a...BOY!!! Oh my goodness no one would ever know the gratitude in my heart for this little man.
But as I went to bed on December 13th I was not able to sleep for the life of me. Tossing and turning with having crazy dreams of our baby being a girl...then another one of it being a boy. My motherly intuition did not let me know what our little one was so I was in the dark on the gender. Waking from the light sleep I managed to get... the next morning on the 14th I was so nervous and anxious to see our baby once again. I had seen it 4 weeks previous and was ready to find out what it was. As Benson and I decided to head to our appointment, we picked up a Dr. Pepper and a kneaders sandwich. I couldn't touch my food and barely sipped at my drink. I've never been so nervous in my life, I didn't care what the gender was I just wanted to hear a heart beat and make sure everything was okay. We went into our awesome Doctors office and was immediately pulled back into the ultrasound room. The tech put the jelly and the wand to my belly and there up on the huge flat screen on the wall was our baby. Oh my goodness it had changed and actually looked like a human, and not a sea monkey. All I was searching for was the heart beat and Benson was trying to find little boy parts. Finally our amazing tech found the heartbeat and let us hear it, all stress was off my shoulders. She finally started taking pictures of our baby...the profile... sucking it's thumb...and all of a sudden she just said " It's a boy!!!". Pretty sure Benson about jumped out of his seat. He had seen the genitalia before the tech had announced it and he was so excited!!!(Benson kept saying it was a boy, and he knew it was a boy the whole time). I immediately said "Really? It's a boy?" I was so happy!!! This will be the first boy grandchild on Benson's side of the family. As she tried to get him to show us his face he would just put his hands in front of his face, she bumped the wand up and down on my tummy to get him to move and we watched him squirm on the screen it made me giggle. He still would not show us his face. So our tech printed off our pictures and sent us on our way. I've never seen Bense's smile so big and that dimple of his stick out so much.

Confirmed "IT'S A BOY!!!"

Our little man sucking his thumb

His little foot

When we were finished we went to see Benson's family for his little sister Clarinis's birthday luncheon. When Bense revealed the gender he said "Well Mom and Dad looks like your getting all girls!!!" and everyone said "ahhh it's a girl!!!" and then Bense said "But you get one BOY!!!" and then everyone said " IT'S A BOY!!!". Later that night we went to my parents house and invited my family over (just so everyone was in the same place at the same time to find out). I had baked cupcakes with blue batter and foil cupcake cups. I then heavily frosted them to hide the blue batter. I then said "Okay everyone open your cupcake and the color of the batter is the gender of the baby." Everyone peeled back the foil and said "It's a boy!!!" and my grandma said "Where, Where mine doesn't say!!!" and we all busted up laughing she thought it said boy somewhere on the cupcake. We hung out at my parents for the rest of the night.
We are truly blessed. We love our little man so much. I am able to tell the difference between his movements and my own digestion. I put my hand to my lower tummy and push on him to stir him up and I've felt his little kicks. But when ever Bense puts his hand on my tummy our little guy stops...It's kind of funny actually. I love being pregnant it is so amazing and hard to describe. It should be a cherished moment in life. Even though your body changes so much and mood swings are killer, I LOVE IT!!!

Holy crap it's tomorrow...

Ummm my tummy is in knots right now....I know so many think that this is not really that big of a deal. But Benson and I are dying right now to know the gender of our baby!!!! Time flew by!!! It seems just like yesterday I was only 14 weeks and now I'm 16 and get to see our baby again!!! This has been the most amazing and humbling experiene I've ever had. I'm so grateful for this blessing and I hope all is still going well and all continues to go well. I'll keep everything updated on when we find out!!!! YAY!!!!

Spiritual Thought...

Last night I decided to pick up the Ensign that I had ordered about 2 months ago and actually read it. It is the Christmas one...my personal favorite. I love to sit back and read about our Christ's birth over and over again even though I've heard it a million times. The first article of reading is titled "The Choice to Be Grateful". It was an amazing article and very uplifting. It made me realize all the things I take for granted. As I thought back to times of how spoiled I was/am and how ungrateful I must seem...then I get a very guilty feeling in my stomach. I'm the baby in my family of just 3 kids. So I guess you could say I was SPOILED ROTTEN and I still am!!! I felt as though I should just have everything handed to me...oh no was I wrong. Mom and Dad set me straight several times but I still had that bratty " I'm entitled to everything" attitude. Now that I'm married and starting our own family I am slowly learning that life is hard and I have to do hard things with out my Mom and Dad to do it for me. So the guilty feeling in the pit of my stomach is well... I have never taken the time to really kneel down and let my Heavenly Father know how grateful I really am. Another add on section to the article was an activity. So I grabbed my pen and paper and started doing it here is what it asked......

1.Write 10 physical abilities you are grateful for.
2.Write 10 material possessions you are grateful for.
3.Write 10 living people you are grateful for.
4.Write 10 deceased people you are grateful for.
5.Write 10 things about nature you are grateful for.
6.Write 10 things about today you are grateful for.
7.Write 10 places on earth you are grateful for.
8.Write 10 modern inventions you are grateful for.
9.Write 10 foods you are grateful for.
10.Write 10 things about the gospel you are grateful for.


At the end of  filling out the questionnaire (which was quite easy) It says "When we make a list like this, we discover that a list of 100 doesn't even begin to scratch the surface of all the things God has given us." Ensign December 2011. My heart melted because I knew how right this sentence was. No matter where you are at in life our Heavenly Father has blessed you in many ways you don't realize. Now we need to take that time to recognize it and to let him know we see his hand in all things.

I have a testimony of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I know the gospel is true. I truly know the power of prayer through out many instances in my life. It has been proven to me through prayer that we are heard, watched over and blessed. I know I will have my whole family eternally in the next life. These things will always be my base and hold me steadfast to the gospel in good and bad times. I love my husband, my family and his family for all the love and support they give us. I don't think I could ever let them know the true feelings I have for each of them in my heart. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ Amen. 

OMG!!!!

Oh my goodness!!!! As December 14th gets closer and closer I begin to get more and more anxious!!! Next Wednesday Benson and I get to find out what our little one is...it will no longer be an "it". We'll be able to give our little one a name and a new milestone will begin with this pregnancy. Benson and I have already started nesting. Dejunking, deep cleaning, rearranging, organizing and getting  rid of things we no longer need for starters. We are slowly preparing our second bedroom for this baby. I'm most definitely not a creative person...so trying to pull together a nursery design is killing my brain. I know what I want, but I cannot find the design or anything remotely close to it. I'm not a cheesy everything themed the same with silly cartoon animals. I'm being a bit picky I guess...but I can be with our first baby:) I really wish I could sew...but here are a couple of fabrics I'd like to use in our nursery. I would love to embrace my husbands Samoan culture while planning out the babies room...so here are a couple things I kind of liked and found online :)

I'd really like to use this fern throw in the crib in either "thyme" (shown) or "poppy pink" for a little girl.

This is a Samoan tapa design that I'd like to use if it's a little boy...but I have to buy it from Samoa.
So it might take some time getting here. Also the currency is different so... I might have to resort to something else.

Baby Bump Premier!!!

So I am about 15 weeks now with this little one. Every step of the way is such a new experience and it all happens so fast!!! Who would have thought your whole belly transforms so quickly...so I decided today is the day to show off the bump. I love to show it off ( even though it's small), I'm still a very proud first time mama to be. SOOO... HERE IT IS!!!